it is terrifying trying to do something that really means a lot to you. i understand it now, there has to be some sort of risk or gamble or sacrifice.
i’m still working away.
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brave
i see all of you out there in the dark. important people in my life who are being really brave right now. i see you and i want to try to emulate your audacity. sometimes, i think my greatest depression in life is that i never tried to be an artist. i think it breaks little bemusea’s heart. so, my heart is about to burst, but i think it’s the right thing to do. i want to unlease and let go and see what i can come up with and finally give it a serious try. maybe now i have the right resources, but more so, the right people in my life. some last minute changes, but i think this is a seed i plant now and i keep nurturing in 2025. right, that’s the year to come. so, can i make a wish? deep yoga breathing.
i wish to create to my heart's content,
my creativity's extent,
and my spirituality's ascent
sometimes it doesn’t come out in prose. i can’t be picky about how inspiration comes my way. i have to use all the creative tools that i know to learn some cool details so that i can study them in my creation. so, that’s what my challenge. anodea judith said in her book something about being consistent long enough until your manifestation can . . . well . . . manifest itself. so, cheers to a number of day ones as i start and restart and continue down this very scary and unique path. i just don’t see anyone else here right now.
to start, i’m going to put together a power point that can help me shape up a skeleton around this beast of a project. i’m just going to try my best to journal every day and if i can create something from my wellness, well, that’s quite a glimmer.